Showing posts with label Music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Music. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Chorale


Dear, dear reader.  Life comes quickly, doesn't it?  Here I am, nearly 3 weeks away from being married.  I've noticed my recently graduated friends musing over much of the same thing recently - being an adult, I mean.  I'm working full time now, I'm making decisions about paint colors and what socks to wear in the mornings, and I'm working and I'm sleeping and I'm working some more.

Some people look at life like this and they just assume that this is all it is - rote routine.  Which, you'd find ironic if you read my last blog post.  But recently, I've been catching up on reading I promised myself I would do in college, and it pushes me.  It spurs me onward towards my Passions: those big things that we each dream about in high school or college - the things we cling to with a desperation that drives us to put one foot in front of the other each and every day.

This post feels a bit scattered and ethereal to me.  Much like my life right now does.  But, friend, the chaos of our life, no matter how scattered and detached we feel now will lead us into eternity in ways you and I could never have imagined.  The crazy thing is, God has wonderful plans for you and me.  And whether we are just secondary characters in the stories of our own lives, or whether we have more say than we'd like to think, the chaos of our past and the passions of our future will back us away enough to get a larger glimpse of the Bigger Picture.

Sometimes when you're just laying in bed, exhausted and ready to be done with your day, you have to listen to beautiful voices and write down a few beautiful words.  I hope they put a small smile on your face tonight, tomorrow, or wherever this post finds you.

Thank you for being you, dear dear reader.  You are one of my Passions.


The beauty of the past,
Even though the pain lasts,
Is the contrast of the dark,
Which brightens your gold heart:
Beautiful chaos.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Standing with Stravinsky: Defining Good Art

You know, there is very little that gets my blood boiling more than a good clash over something I feel strongly about.  More often than not this clash happens with my peers - over a cup of coffee, sitting in the cafeteria - you know, the stereotypical college student conversations.  This time, however, it took place around 9:23am in my first class of the morning: Expository Writing.

Today in class, we were not discussing our up-and-coming paper (I think it was our journal review, and, being the music major I am, I was comparing two articles on the opera Don Giovanni); instead, we were discussing whether or not one can define "good art."  (Random aside...I love semicolons.  I kinda do a little celebratory fist-pump when a good sentence featuring a semicolon comes together.  I guess I owe that to a friend of mine.)  From my professor's perspective, we can judge whether or not art is "good" by comparing it to the standard of accepted material (let's call it the "canon" of art, because that's really what a canon is): for example, we can judge physical art (sculptures, paintings, etc.) by people such as Picasso, Van Gogh, or da Vinci, or music by people such as Bach, Stravinsky, or Mozart, or poetry by people like Frost, Longfellow, Shakespeare, etc.  By comparing the material to the accepted standard set by the canon of each field of art, we can determine if it is good.  After all, Something gave these artists immortality in some form or another.

I disagreed with her method of defining good art, but I wasn't exactly sure how to put my disagreement into words.  The position she held left no room for changes away from the accepted canon, and it left no room for artists whom immortality avoids for one reason or another.  Being a musician, I could not help but think of the first time Stravinsky's Rite of Spring was performed: the escape from traditional orchestration and Tonality was so immense that vegetables flew, riots broke out in the theater, and Stravinsky was denounced by the Russian government for being a "decadent artist."  Now, however, Stravinsky is revered as the greatest composer of the 20th century, and his works are performed in his memory yearly (I recently saw the Rite of Spring for the first time two days ago - I forgot to breathe for much of the performance).

Being a young artist myself, and having created (I think) a form of poetry that cannot be compared to any of the great poets of the canon of art, I shrink from the idea that my art cannot be considered good.  My form is new, and just like Stravinsky's leaving of tonality, it has the potential to be ignored and even ridiculed for branching off in a new direction.  I was at a loss - I knew of no one in the "accepted canon" who supported my views, until I read Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters to a Young Poet for the second time (which, if you haven't read, you simply must), and stumbled across a series of quotes that perfectly illustrated what I was trying to verbalize in class (and contrary to my professor's desires, I will not try to summarize the quotes - I will directly quote Rilke.  He says what needs to be said in a tongue far more elegant than mine).

Rilke prefaces his defense of art by saying, "[Art] is not immaculate, it is marked by time and by passion, and little of it will survive and endure.  But most art is like that!"  Art surviving Time is not necessary?  Immaculate art is not necessary?  And on I read, wondering if Rilke would mention the Immortal Bards and their accepted Standard, until I saw:

"Even the best err in words when they are meant to mean most delicate and almost inexpressible things."

Ah, even those who maintain a mastery over words that I will never achieve err.  Be aware, therefore, dear reader.  If the best err, so much more shall you and I.  But reading on, I wondered if there is any hope for finding the standard I have been searching for, and suddenly, Rilke spoke directly to me.

"Nobody can counsel you and help you, nobody.  Search for the reason that bids you write; find out whether it is spreading out its roots in the deepest places of your heart, acknowledge to yourself whether you would have to die if it were denied you to write.  If you may meet this earnest question with a strong and simple 'I must,' then build your life according to this necessity; your life even into its most indifferent and slightest hour must be a sign of this urge and a testimony to it."

Expectantly, I read on, not daring to completely digest what Rilke had just told me, until I found what I was looking for.  According to Rainer Maria Rilke, "A work of art is good if it has sprung from necessity."

Must you write?  Then do it.  Do not worry about the critics; do not worry about the standard.  Good art is yours, dear reader.  Filled with passion and life, your life, good art is art that you feel you must create.  Stravinsky knew this.  Rilke knew this.

"Being an artist means, not reckoning and counting, but ripening like the tree which does not force its sap and stands confident in the storms of spring without the fear that after them may come no summer.  It does come.  But it comes only to the patient, who are there as though eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly still and wide."  Sometimes patience is the hardest thing to achieve, especially in art.  As young artists, we wonder if what we are creating is worthwhile, and I believe in some senses that worry is justified.  We know that there is a canon, and a part of us, large or small, wants to be accepted.  But that isn't what truly matters.  What matters is that we continue to create, just as those who came before us.  Our art may not affect many people, but be assured, your art will have an effect.  You may not see it, but it is there.

Practically speaking, Rilke gives two more pieces of advice that I think need to be taken to heart by budding artists such as you and me.

"Read as little as possible of aesthetic criticism - such things are either partisan views, petrified and grown senseless in their lifeless induration, or they are clever quibblings in which today one view wins and tomorrow the opposite."  The critics may persecute you and your work, but it is important to remember that they are not the final authority on your art.  Perspective is everything.

And finally, "You cannot disturb [your artistic development] more rudely than by looking outward and expecting from outside replies to questions that only your inmost feeling in your most hushed hour can perhaps answer."  Live your life in pursuance of Truth first, and then create as our Creator did.  Fill your work with your life.  You Were Born, your life has value endowed upon you by our Creator, and your art, the expression of that value, is Good.

I guess the moral to this lengthy blog post is this: keep creating.  Immortality and fame are both unkind, but unnecessary for your work to be "good art."  And be careful how harshly you judge other people's art; do not become the critics Rilke spoke so lowly of: you could end up mocking the next Igor Stravinsky.

Necessary; from the heart,
Not "classic," but apart,
Let heartstrings sing,
Into Immortality spring:
Defining "Good Art."

To Rainer Maria Rilke, for reminding me that I do not create and I am not an artist for fame or immortality.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Live the Question: Pursuance of Art

"When God created - and in that way made the perception of beauty and the human creation of art possible - he gave art a place in this world in which we live; and that world he called good.  Art is here because God meant it to be here."  - H.R. Rookmaaker

Imagine: as soon as God created, Art came into being.  It was the first thing to truly exist in our Universe, in our Reality.  Sure, He made Light first.  But in the same words he breathed Light into being, Art took shape too.  There was no war, no worries, no struggle.  In God's perfect Universe, alongside everything He created, there was Art.  God called this world Good.  Perfection centered around existence, praise to God, and Art.  After the Fall, that changed.  War and worry were added.  Our focus was violently shifted.  But Art is still out there, just waiting to be pursued.

In our society today, the arts are being mercilessly cut and removed from our education system to make way for the "essentials."  But really, when God created the Universe, were social studies, Language, Math, and Science the focus?  Not at all.  They were all in the working background.  I do not mean to say that these disciplines are unimportant; on the contrary, these disciplines hold the fabric of the Universe together.  But they are not the zenith of God's beautiful creation.  Always, there is Art.

There are some great people throughout history who have not forgotten this truth: Art is made to be pursued.
 Art is the capstone of every civilization.  In every Golden Age, the pinnacle is creativity.  Why do we remember the Golden Age of Athens or of Rome?  Great philosophers, sculptors, orators, painters: artists.  The nearest any civilization has come to perfection is always highlighted by the deepest Creativity.  There is a quote that is floating around on the internet: "When Winston Churchill was asked to cut arts funding in favor of the war effort, he simply replied 'then what are we fighting for?'"  The quote isn't verified to actually be Churchill's, but even if it isn't, the truth of those words has resonated in my head ever since I first read it.  Why on earth are we cutting funding to the Arts?  What then, are we fighting for?  Are we abandoning our Golden Age?  It seems we are no longer pursuing what characterizes the things that give the Lord deep glory.  It seems we are no longer pursuing perfection.

I have been searching for who I am for quite a long time, as most of you are aware if you read any of what I write.  Recently, however, I have decided that I want to be a music professor.  I love music; it is my Art.  I love writing; it is my Art.  Pursuing a graduate degree in music theory or music history (or both) is a place I can write and perform, and I can influence coming generations towards things that truly matter.

Like finding and using their Art for a Purpose that really matters.

And learning when a word needs to be capitalized.

I've been reading a lot of Rainer Maria Rilke's "Letters to a Young Poet" recently (sincerely thankful a dear friend gave me that wonderfully insightful book), and I was led to the following quote that helped solidify in my mind that I'm on the right track.

"You are so young, so before all beginning, and I want to beg you, as much as I can, dear sir, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.  Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.  And the point is, to live everything.  Live the questions now.  Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

I am not claiming to have The Answer.  I assume that will not come until very few breaths remain in me.  If any.  But I do know I feel as if I have been given some new sense of direction, and I am following it.  I feel somewhere deep within me that it is leading me toward the Art that I have, for most of my life, greatly enjoyed but thought I would someday have to give up.  A part of me feels an odd sense of completion that I am being pushed in a direction that will not require me to give them up, but instead to pursue them.  To pursue my Art - my offer of praise to the ultimate Artist.

The past few weeks I have had small glimpses into the true definition and existence of Art with a capital A.  I am immersed in its beauty in ways I never believed possible, and in ways that nothing else can achieve.  I have no witty or strategic way to incorporate the following three poems I wrote under music's influence.  As you read them, try to imagine the most beautiful and all-encompassing thing you've ever experienced.  These are the feelings I have tried to capture.  I feel as if I'm in the middle of a vortex of words of pleasure, and in reaching my hands out I can only grasp a few.  Know that many more wonderful words and feelings still rage about me.

Overwash and flow,
Sing, violin's bow,
Flood my senses,
Beautiful, yearning, pensive:
Intense musical pleasure.


Shiver down the spine,
Whisper in time,
So much pleasure,
Measure after measure:
Musically Aroused.

Back of the mind,
Rolling in time,
On or off the seat,
Plagued by the beat:
Drum fill.

I don't know for certain where I am going.  I don't know the answer, but I am living the question.  
I am pursuing my Art.  
Music and words dance constantly through my head.  Lord, please don't let the dance stop.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Off-White Converse




Attention decline,
Look and you'll find,
Not much at all,
Consciousness call:
Music ADHD.



I feel much like Professor McGonagall in using that last Scarlequain.  Penned in October of 2013, I've been dying to use it in a post ever since, and today, I feel justified in doing so.  The past several hours have seen me listening to Symphony No. 2 Allegro Maestoso by Mahler, Concerto in Bb Minor for Piano and Orchestra by Tchaikovsky, various Rage Against the Machine (culture shock switching genres like that, I know), and a little bit of Fall Out Boy.

"Oh dear," you're probably saying to yourself at the moment, "here comes another musical rant.  Must I listened to this cultured gobbledygook?"  (Believe it or not, the y is not changed to an i in this particular circumstance...yay English...)  The answer is no, you don't.  Pardon me if I step on any toes.

"I've been dying to tell you anything you wanna hear, 'cause that's just who I am this week."

Thank you Fall Out Boy for pulling my readers and me away from another musical rant.  Thank you Fall Out Boy for dragging my readers and me into a rant I've been avoiding.  Sometimes to say what you want to you have to trash new ideas, pull from old ones, and just start writing.  So let's start with some poetry.



Followers of God,
A horrid facade,
Stained; caught; lured,
Makes insecure:
A Christian Mask.






Attending chapel at Bryan College has never really been my favoritest thing in the world (pardon my descent into less-than-eloquent English...sometimes I can't help myself).  There have been several people who have led chapel (who don't anymore, and now, in my opinion, chapel is struggling a bit.  As is the entire music department, but that's another rant for another time...) who have been extremely influential on me spiritually.  But as I said, they are gone, and chapel isn't what it once was.  Which is why the previous chapel speaker at the Engage Conference we held at the beginning of the semester rocked my world/boat a bit, so to speak.

Recently, I have been very upset at the local church.  I said everything that the speaker pointed out as faulty.  I didn't want to attend a local church because the people there are a bunch of self-righteous cover-ups.  I understand why agnostic friends say they don't want to be Christian because they're all hypocrites.  But the speaker challenged me to change that.  I can't change the people who continue to hide behind their mask.  I know they have their dirt just like I do.  A lot of people know.  But since wearing the Christian mask is something most everyone does, nobody bothers to be Real (there goes my Romanticized capitalization again...), because nobody else is.

I have a tendency to trust people too much - to be too vulnerable.  It opens me up very quickly and creates bonds faster than should be created.  So coming to college like that has allowed me to get burned multiple times, and it has caused me to be more careful.  But in becoming more cautious, retreating into myself has made me put on my Christian mask again.  I am too scared to be honest.  I am too scared to let other people know I'm not a saint.  Just like Fall Out Boy pointed out, I become what other people want to hear.  Tickling their ears?  Scripture was right.

So this is me trying to be different, and encouraging you to do the same.  Take off the Christian mask.  Be a Christian underneath the mask.  Be a Real Christian - a fallen human being who still makes mistakes, and makes them daily.  Admit to that dirt, but point out that you're forgiven through Christ's perfect sacrifice for you.  Other people may not forget and forgive like He does.  And that's ok.  Sooner or later, you will find (as I have) that there are a few people that will take off their mask and join you.  And those people are well worth exposing yourself to.

So this is me.  Telling you I have dirt, asking you to see me for what I am (blemished, but wonderfully saved), and asking you to join me.  No matter how much dirt you have, you're always welcome here.

"In three words I can sum up everything I know about life: it goes on."
-Robert Frost

"Be yourself.  Everyone else is already taken."
-Oscar Wilde







Purity lack,
Bleed-through black,
Hide no more,
Honesty's shore:
Off-White Converse.

Monday, December 16, 2013

An 8va Above the Rest

It is very seldom that I compose a Scarlequain that is simplistic, but at the same time, so deep that I have trouble putting it into words.  Let me explain.

My semester at Bryan has just come to a close.  The last week was spent stressing my brains out, losing sleep, and crying harder than I have in years due to some of my closest friends parting ways with me.  When these hard times hit, it is a normal thing for me to write some form of self-motivation on my left wrist - just to sorta remind myself to be thankful, keep pushing, or stay sane, and the one that kept making its way on to my skin was simply "8va."

Now to those of you who aren't as musically interested as others who read this blog, 8va means, "to play one octave higher" than the notated material.  For those of you who still have no idea what that means, Google it.  You'll learn something.  Even if you do understand, you have to be a trumpet player to know the significance of playing something up the octave.  8va is the prize at the end of the rainbow.  It is the ultimate achievement.  It is a sign of manly awesomeness that cannot be gained in any other manner.

The problem with taking something up the octave is that it is extremely risky.  You see, the higher one goes up the trumpet's range, the more difficult the notes become to form, and the more likely you are to sound awful.  But then...if you hit it...

The culmination of all things perfect.

So, why did I write this on my wrist?  Still seems pretty nerdy...

Glad you asked.

8va is something every trumpet player will be attempting all of his/her life.  And it is something in which even a pro experiences a level of uncertainty.  Anyone can crack an 8va, no matter how many hours of practice.  But we never stop trying.  We never step down from an 8va, even if we're exhausted.  Because taking something down is a jab to our pride...to our honor.  It is something anyone can do at any time.

I suppose it may be a silly comparison, but I tried to apply that same attitude to my life during the last few weeks.  What if I approached everything I did...friendships with people leaving, my school, my spiritual life...with the same attitude that I do an 8va?  I know I wouldn't hit it all the time.  I know it's even more difficult when I'm exhausted...but when I do hit it...when it really sails up there, high and brilliant...it's worth it.  And when that attitude affects other people, when the pride disappears and all that's left is the drive to be an 8va above the people around who are just playing just to play, that's when the music...when Life...really sings.


My little sister, in my honor.  The drive that affects others.




Bright and high,
Heartsails fly,
Set above the rest,
Risk; greatness; test:
8va.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Prosaic Torture by a Tory for 200 Years

Sometimes the best way to escape the sheer terror of the stress mounting everywhere around you is to ignore it and pretend it isn't there, if only for a short time.  This is me doing just that, in my haven at Harmony House.

Welcome to hell week.

Thumbing through my leather book of scribblings, I've noticed that many of my Scarlequain deal with historical figures, be they operatic performers/reformers, serial rapists, or random men of the French Revolution.  ...it is with an ashamed demeanor that I admit my love of immortally binding these people with my words is very Wilhoitesque.

At any rate, I figured I could share a few of those poems with you as a tribute to those people who have lived and died, and yet who did something with their lives that was significant enough to make us remember them.

First of all (because let's face it, from the instant I mentioned the two words "serial rapist" that's all you've been thinking about): Don Giovanni!

*insert extreme groan of disdain from every Bryanite musician who has slaved under DW's tutelage.*

Fashioned after the Spanish player Don Juan, Don Giovanni is an Italian playboy who boasts of having laid around 1,200ish women in his travels and escapades, and ends up getting sent to hell for his raucus lifestyle (because I totally didn't use the word raucus in my paper on DG...).  Yes...we had to write a paper on this guy.  So here you are, for your pleasure.  A tribute to Don Giovanni, star of the opera buffa (hint, hint, freshies...), and by implication, the great Mozart, and the suffering we all endured in his name.

Don Giovanni and the Commendatore

Don Juan,
Will gone,
Shoot me now,
To torture voluntarily bow:
Music History Paper.













I decided I should write a poem for this next guy because, let's face it...how many people actually know about operatic reformers?  I'm a music major and had no idea who this guy was previous to about a month ago (thanks DW).  At any rate, Christoph Willibald Gluck was the most famous of operatic reformers.  He decided opera's music should serve the poetry and plot of the libretto (the guy who writes the words), and he restored the role of the chorus (the big conglomeration of peeps who sing aside from the soloists), integrated an orchestra, and added much more variety to the solos that were sung.  Props, Gluck!  With a name like that...you need to be remembered for something.  ...other than your name.

Christoph Willibald Gluck




Serve the story,
In the Whig of a Tory,
Music was torn,
Need operatic reform:
Enter Willibald Gluck!










I recently found the first Scarlequain I wrote in Music History class, where this all began, and chucked a bit to myself.  Even after flipping through my Music History notes, I couldn't find who this poem is about.  I do recall the details, however.  It seems there was this one chap who was just before Gluck (who, upon further consideration, is my hero), and wanted opera to be based solely on prose and not poetry.  Being the beatnik/hippie/romantic/weirdo that I am, that sort of set me off, as it were (that's for you, Dad).  So I wrote this poem about my distaste for that fellow, for prose, and for the Enlightenment in general (if only just for this one aspect of it):

 Here is a picture of Kant.  Because Enlightenment.




Prosaic demoniac,
Raging maniac,
Poetry, not prose,
Mere dirt in your toes:
Enlightenment buzz.










Finally, and probably the sole inspiration for this post, here is my homage to the two great composers who were born in 1813, and consequentially, celebrate their 200th birthday this year: Giuseppe Verdi and Richard Wagner (ri-CARD VAHG-ner.  See, you learn something new every day.)  Both men were extremely important and influential in their respective nations: people used to cry "Viva Verdi" (used as an acronym for the King of Italy during the Revolution that was stirring in the 1850-60s: Viva Vittorio Emanuele Re D'Italia), and, believe it or not, Hitler got much inspiration from the antisemitic writings of Wagner, and was deeply inspired to "preserve the motherland" after hearing one of Wagner's operas and visiting his grave site.  Despite these seemingly undesirable associations today, these men remain two of the greatest composers of the 19th century.

(Time out before I celebrate these two great men.  Let me say that it is a sin that Carrie Underwood is starring in a redo of The Sound of Music.  Just...no.  It should NEVER be redone.  Ever.)

At any rate, happy birthday to them both:

Giuseppe Verdi
Richard Wagner



200 years,
Raise Euro beers,
Salute the greats,
Despite Hitler's hate:
Verdi and Wagner.





And now you have been introduced to one of the largest areas of my life.  I am a musician, and I love it.  Will it pay?  Will I continue down this path after I leave the Hill?  Right now, I don't know, and I don't care.  Pardon me while I take another sip of my coffee.